I'm such an idiot.
By now, I think we've all heard about Shiny's roleplay, "Dimensional Abduction". I'm pretty sure a lot of you have joined it, too. And if you do happen to be a member, I'm sure you've noticed that I'm not up in the member list. Well, I'll tell you why. I remember Shiny mentioning that she thought it was because I was busy handling the Soul Eater roleplay, but no, that's not the case. Now, I'm going to be brutally honest here, and I don't want anyone to be offended. I really don't like the concept of the roleplay from what I've read about it. I'm really, really sorry if that came off as rude. But yes, I really can't see myself joining a roleplay about Nintendo characters and aliens... which is somewhat hypocritical, considering some of the roleplays I've thrown out there. Especially the one I tried to make the other day. And that brings us to a completely different topic.
It's as if I can't accept that someone else from the Sakimi Crew made a successful roleplay. This isn't the first time this has happened, either. Whenever someone else makes a roleplay that I did not help develop, I usually join and then never come back. Examples of situations in which that happened are in that PMD roleplay Feather made and the Yoshi roleplay Shiny made. Almost all of our main roleplays were mostly created by me, aside from things like the first APR. And even though Shiny's basking in the spotlight as far as roleplays go at the moment, I feel as if we are without a roleplay. I've tried remedying this with the Soul Eater roleplay, the Bound Items, and by suggesting we bring back Legendary Genesis or the likes, but obviously those haven't gotten anywhere. It could be just because I refuse to join, and I myself am without a roleplay because of that. But still, I feel as if I am trying to yank the spotlight back over to me, where it had been since APR III. I need to give others the chance to shine, and stop acting as if I'm the ruler of the Sakimi Crew. What right do I even have to say these things? I may have created the website that brought us together in the first place, and been in charge of the majority of our main roleplays, but that doesn't put me at a different level than the rest of you. I'm just another member of the Sakimi Crew, and I have to learn to accept that.
It makes me wonder if any of you have grudgingly put up with any of my roleplays. I realize I'm not the most creative person, and probably a lot of my plots and ideas have been godawful. Was it as if I was forcing you to join my roleplays? I bet it's happened with everyone here at least once... maybe I should be a trooper like all of you have been and join Shiny's roleplay and recognize that it's her time in the spotlight.